As you are more than aware by now, I am nearly finished with the Couch To 5K program, and will do the BlogHer 5K in Central Park next Friday (one week from today!). I did my Week 9, Day 1 run today (well, if you can call it that), which is supposed to be thirty minutes long, and crumbled. I ran for the first eighteen or so minutes, then completed the rest of the time alternating walking and running. My legs felt like lead. I was discouraged. I couldn’t get rid of the “I can’t do this” thoughts. I came home and cried.
I’m frustrated because last week, I felt so good that I ran for thirty minutes on the treadmill. I can’t figure out why I am suddenly hitting a wall.
Is it because I have mostly trained outside until last week, when I had to do all three runs inside on machines?
I drank water and ate a bowl of Raisin Bran before my run this morning. I don’t think that’s the problem.
Is it my playlist? The way I sequenced all of the songs, they go from slowest tempo to fastest, because I figured I’d need quicker beats to stay motivated as I move along. Should I reverse that and start with the quicker tempo songs when I’m feeling the strongest, and then move to slower beats as I get more tired? Should I alternate quicker tempo songs with slower to mix it up?
I am not failing by any means; I know this. My original goal was to finish this training program, and I am going to do that, even if I’m walking for some of it. My secondary goal was to do the 5K, and I am going to do that, even if I’m walking for some of it. But I felt despair on my run today, and it didn’t feel good. How do I get to a place mentally where I can hang on no matter what?
Lots of questions. I’m hoping you all have lots of answers for me.
Help! (and thank you.)
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